11-11-12 Poem

Lobby thoughts
Of far away days
The past, the future
but right now, I claim this a good day

4am I awoke
Inspired to pray, Lord
Help me to never loose my way
Help me to never forget this day

In this moment, a want for nothing
Laso'd time, giftwrapped in gold...capturing
These beautiful thoughts,
Blessed to pay
Every low, made today a good day

Nasira braided my hair
Her sweetness brushed away my fears 
We laughed, we smiled,
Features of familia-rity

My day to dance with daddy,
My Aiva my everything
Sentiments to Ohio, a trip that brought me home
To spread hope, to families from my own

I dedicate this day, for now and always
To my babies saddened by the world
Know that all you are and we will ever be
Is my life's everything

10-30-12 Poem

Success attracts two things
Love
And the pains such love brings

To be admired,
desired
but too fraid to be aquired

My life....now

To be the woman I am
virtuous
but assumed to be
everything else

Sad...for a little while

10-14-12 Poem

My sister,
Who's lived 31 years
On my birthday
My wish is for God to claim your tears
I couldnt find a card to say
You're stuck with me forEver...okay
I get why you've been mad since '86
Since packing my school lunch, and pick up sticks
Since chocolate M & M cakes and jelly slides
Since getting big sister blamed for when I cried
Since wetting your bed, when I was too scared to sleep alone for nighty night
Since kicks in the face and salt and pepper fights
I hope on your birthday you didnt wish me away
You're the bestest big sister, well for the torture that's the least I can say!

Thanks for everything, love you.

10/3 Poem

I dated a Frank Sinatra once

And ohh was he a fine fella

He wore a cologne of love

And when we danced I became Cinderella

Smile today love I miss you, I love you. You are in my thoughts always.

With love,

India

9/10 Poem #2

Have you not learned
Love they
haven't earned
Ponder on
the wait of its worth

Stop
the dates
Stop
The cares

Unlucky libra
your luck's gonna change
Stop, chasing pavements
that lead no where

Youre stronger
be wronger
Certain
Love will set you free!

9/10 Poem #1

Bad night
A new day
surrender this
in tears I pay
rule breaker
gone astray
Delibrate disobedience
to take me away

Another
Just like before
Trusting a fools heart
that beats for the dismay

9/10 Poem

I learned the hard way that they all say

Things you wanna hear

My heavy heart sinks deep down under

You and your twisted words

Your help just hurts

You are not what I thought you were

Hello to high and dry

Convinced me to please you

Made me think that I need this too

I'm trying to let you hear me as I am

You grabbed my face

Through emotions all over the place

Made me out to be

Unable to breathe easy

And now you have the nerve to play along
You got your kicks, you get your kicks from playing me
And the less you gave the more I wanted so foolishly

But I will never be your stepping stone
Taking back my heart and leaving you alone
I will never be your stepping stone
Looks like ill just keep on stepping on my own

9/6 Poem

I wrote a letter
to my 9 year old self
Be brave in love
The hurts, help

She wrote me instructions
for life, in her diary
Love God, family and others
Unconditionally

Pages of prayers 
such innocence
Pleads to God
for loved ones repents

Her life's gonna be unfair
Got dammit the blame
Dads drugs, Mom's Sex, loves lost,
Loneliness comforted by pain

If my 9 year old self
asked me why's her life gonna be so hard
I'd say fear not, the bad days of others
make yours a walk in the park

8/20 Poem

Jaded moons
No sad songs left to sing
Life's been a
Happening

Three twenty five
Morning work
Missing love
Alone for what its worth

I chased a fellow
But the light turned red
Desperate to visit lost hope
With the dreams in my head

7/11

Seven eleven love
Always open for chance
Im thinking forever's
Long-term romance

Face to face with fear
Such bold smiles
Should prayers be answered
Lord grant me a husband, a child

Damn I'm awesome to of overcame
The rights the wrongs and made peace with the pain
Optimism, faith and a heart determined
To live, to love, to like Shane

Toni stole my birthday
Lucky Libras lost in emotions
Happy to say
Bingo, one zero one five wins



Dinner, movies, love in the making 
Warm hands that calm the doubts within
Its too soon, there's rules, slow down...thinking
yolo, throw caution to the wind

Grit, give my all, let him in
No more once upon a times, no more sad ends
I need that real love,  cancel those pretends

Ill smile when its good
I'll cry when its great,
Ill work to make it work
Ill try my best to relate

I only have one chance to give
One tear and I'm out
I'm grown enough to know
The BS isnt what Im bout

Master class; wise from the be-fore's
Pursuit, as many times as it takes
Til I find what I need
What's one more heart break

 

Need to want your love
To improve my life
Need to want your love
Make me your wife

Need to want your love
Need me to have it
Need to want your love
Make loving me your bad habit

Need to want your love
Want to need me around
Need to want your love
Keep away the frowns

Need to want your love
Think of me in your prayers
Need to want your love
Need to want my love near

2-11 Poem

Eyes lowered
This wont work
The needs neverd
It was worth a try
Ignored ignorance
Intoxicicants cockeyed
Ah well
Disrespect
Ill let it go
Ill let it go
Hmmm

2-25 Poem

Inboxx

India Parson
Feb 26
to me

Member when
You  talked all night
Made these memories
That haunt me tonight

Member when
You swore youd succeed
You dreamt up these dreams
That bears seasoned agony

Member when
Your love was clearer
Now Sitting distant from love
Cuz Distant loves wished nearer

If it took you death
Youd be proud
Youd say fear not lonliness
Just Fear quittin

When your destined for greatness
And pushing for change
And friends you once had
cause the most pain

Youd say to her
Sweet  soul come on in
Its not for anyone but me
To remember when

2-17 Poem

Scriptures of Proverbs
A novice tale
Illiteratature
Eardrummed brail
Blighted conquest
Better ye drifted near
Twas beautiful Oceans
Fallice streamed bitter beer
Suffocated sound
Hear A eye R
Blind my lips
Ajar
I lend thee thy heart
Assume it quere
Do with it what you will
I dont care

2-17 Poem

I trust you
What sugary words
To fraid to eat
I trust you
Mmm my chocolate heartbeat
Innocent smile
Dimpled grin
A hand to hold
A friend
I try, I fail
I try again
Kissed goodbye
Abandoned

Unfinished Poems

3-2
to me

Aisha, youre loved
Even once its enough
Aisha he loved you
Sip rose wine round cupped
Love lingered
A king will fall
Why let his love sip away
Please stall
This guy, greatness no
A primadonna
Greatness no

3-18

A hurt I hurt
Busy enough

3-30 Poem

Before we left
You loved me
I had a heartbeat
That hugged me

I packed a hope
Borrowed a prayer
Forgave a lie
Rouletted a dare

You riddled my heart
and left it shattered here
Poetry definitive
By sorrows to share

Your kiss isnt as sweet
O song a cheer sung
You made me out a failure
Who let a fool win one

Bidly bird
Fly free if you must
Please see fit one day
To bring back me my trust

1/21/2012

Ah to want a friend
But be cursed by wise lips
Nevermore lonelier words
Satan quit not his trips

Clipped winged hope
For fear its flight
Pray'd fors be sent
Again love not write

To save a sin
For celebration sake
Why excellence lord
For normals sake

Why must eyes see
A way away
What be two for heaven
One mind to stay

Faithful in faith
No questioned whined
Keep all thyself forward
On not weary's time

It is not I that matter
So right its wronging
Leave not Righteousness alone
Let not one not steal thy most precious belongings

1/29/2012

To deny myself a foot
For I no itll walk 100 miles
I defy myself to tears
Hurts be wilded

To deny myself an eye
For I no itll show thy soul
I defy myself to tears
Hurts braved back untold

To deny myself a hand
For I no itll grasp at the smoke
I defy myself to tears
Hurts alaVok

To deny myself a heart
For I know itll love desparately
I defy myself to tears
Hurt is every part of me

Ill deny myself every limb
Hear, see, taste, feel pain away
Remedy thy impatience
I defy myself not my poetry

2/6/2012

In my excess

Be blessed to bless

Fresh kept sorrow

Due gin morrow

My begged fo burden

My Prayed fo hurt’n

Winned words whaled

Saved cat-tailed

Heaved high healed climb

Sweet loved lemon rind

Heavy lids be rinsed

Truths in tensed

Flocked mercy me lord

Break thy bored

Humble me heighty

Gift me mighty

Limit no care

Poor not no fear

Use me

Selfishly

Poem 1-17

When it hurts, I cry
The same ol tears
When lord will it be my chance
To love without these fears

Wiser now I admit
Oh how I've grown
My only wish now
Sweet ignorance a distant friend to have known

No fingers pointed
More directed at me
Better than
Misery

Although it hurts
All pain not good or bad
Just tears to babtise
A soul from sadness

Truth sought is truth seen
A darkness resided
No hope bestowed
He and his soul besided

Only plans to go forth
And fill my time with faith
Love til I have no more
A journey where sure no safe