Poem 9-21

Me time
Just me and my thoughts today
Ridding myself of anxiousness
Peace be with me

Stillness and calm
An agenda of none
Nestled in the rocks
Unsure of why he's not the one

The cool breeze having its way.
Making me positive for sanity's sake
As I stopped myself from being my same ol me
Fed up with being best friends with happiness's heartache

i decided it was time that i road about town
to discover its soul, clear my mind
to free my heart, and find my home
stopped here to question whether if what Im searching for I would ever find

tormented by loneliness, a want inside of me
for so long Ive been incapable to share
a silence within, too loud
for anyone but me to hear

I met my new friend right then on this Saturday afternoon
he was tough and mysterious
and had deep brown skin
he saw life in my eyes and without touching me was kind
he made me feel beautiful as he manipulated the breeze to play in my hair
his peacefulness flowed through me
his gentleness replaced friends that had left me behind

he listened to my fears
as I sat as his feet
he comforted me with new dreams
as we shared our defeats

I admired how every branch, every being
exploited  his goodness
but his strength and character
was bothered not by their rudeness

not seeking a hello or a goodbye
or a mention of his name
I fell in love with him b/c he promised me he'd be there when I needed him again
Thank you James

Poem 9-17

I needed you to fix me
I needed you to take away the pain
I need you to make me feel safe
I know, I'm insane

I needed you to fight for us
To make me a necessity
A love, a friend I needed you to need me
Wishes fivoriously

All I know is what I know
Its time to learn something new
Its time to become the woman
I know I am

I have been broken, I have been hurt
I am finding my way
Some days I am sad and scared
 And unsure for what to pray

 The idea of an us in ever sense of the word
 My happiness and happily ever after I've ever known
I've sold myself on a brighter days
But it wasn't supposed to be this way

I believe in you even if you cant see what I see
Faith is love
Us come into my life
Be true

7-6 Poem

If we met anywhere on the map
In the midst of the world
We'd find a way, for a moment...entrapped
In love, in laughs, boy and girl

You'd be my Lucky fella on the boardwalk of life's lane
Your Carnation to wear
Nestled near your heart again

Dearest Mandel you made my life poetic
Where bad was good and there is a realism to be great
I who you found inside of me
Fearlessness from depths of intellect and creativity
I am everything you chose to see
A remanence beyond Brazil's beauty
I am woman to your flame
I am inspiration
I am

...you are missed



You and the idea of you
Though distance in time and space
Will never be forgot
Will never be replaced

In love, in laughs
Of mutual heart and mind
We were the rarest of things
2 of a kind

Seconds to minutes, and minutes beyond
So fond a thing is love
Especially when its gone

but without a doubt
words from the lips you kissed
I'd be remiss if I said you weren't missed

~Ocean