08/17/2013

It's a good kind of hurt
Like strength training for the heart
The only way to know is to know
The only way to love is to love

We were a low key love, in my world atleast
Thanks for saving me the shame
Thanks for saving me the pain
I wish I believed you when you told me the truth about dating a guy like you
You told me you were bad, but you made our friendship seem so true
So lets pretend you were a friend and told me to go find what I deserve
That you couldn't love me right, couldn't you have just said that, instead of breaking your word

Maybe you didn't know that's what I needed
Maybe you assumed I wanted to commit this suicide
Maybe you thought I deserve the heartache and pain
Maybe you figured this is the only way I'd learn

Thanks for being the teacher of pain
Ill be sure not to displace any blame
It isn't your fault my heart was ready for love
It isn't your fault good people never win
It isn't your fault I refuse to fall victim

It's mine and this is what we'll do
Ill work on me and you work on you
And the next time my heartbreak calls
Ill use us as a reason why my heart has these walls

Poem 2-11

I love that your face is the first that I see

You help me

It is you that helps me

Me that needs you to tame Mohagony

Broken pieces of a heart

Held palm up on dissappointed days

You string them together one by one

Tie them in a bow around my finger for luck and blow with me to wish them away

If I were you Id want to be my friend to

Its gets better on the other side of forever

When what I we say today somehow is true

If I were you Id want to be my friend to

Glad, grateful, thankful I had enough good sense to choose you! 

12-14 Poem

Maybe if you saw my tears
You'd love away the pain
Maybe if you heard my fears
You'd stop this thats causing them

Patch up your foolish heart, swallow your hurt
No need to cry now, you dissappointment, I sware, stop
Pick up your heart out the dirt
No one really cares cuz from their view you're at the top

Ha! He said he always be there
Like a fool you listened
Look at you now, hold tight to this strangers' hand
Be comforted by his lies cuz you aint shit to him,
Say your lies and goodbyes
Save your good sins to let live
Oh he loves you now, he's sorry, he misses you
And what you do but forgive

11-11-12 Poem

Lobby thoughts
Of far away days
The past, the future
but right now, I claim this a good day

4am I awoke
Inspired to pray, Lord
Help me to never loose my way
Help me to never forget this day

In this moment, a want for nothing
Laso'd time, giftwrapped in gold...capturing
These beautiful thoughts,
Blessed to pay
Every low, made today a good day

Nasira braided my hair
Her sweetness brushed away my fears 
We laughed, we smiled,
Features of familia-rity

My day to dance with daddy,
My Aiva my everything
Sentiments to Ohio, a trip that brought me home
To spread hope, to families from my own

I dedicate this day, for now and always
To my babies saddened by the world
Know that all you are and we will ever be
Is my life's everything

10-30-12 Poem

Success attracts two things
Love
And the pains such love brings

To be admired,
desired
but too fraid to be aquired

My life....now

To be the woman I am
virtuous
but assumed to be
everything else

Sad...for a little while

10-14-12 Poem

My sister,
Who's lived 31 years
On my birthday
My wish is for God to claim your tears
I couldnt find a card to say
You're stuck with me forEver...okay
I get why you've been mad since '86
Since packing my school lunch, and pick up sticks
Since chocolate M & M cakes and jelly slides
Since getting big sister blamed for when I cried
Since wetting your bed, when I was too scared to sleep alone for nighty night
Since kicks in the face and salt and pepper fights
I hope on your birthday you didnt wish me away
You're the bestest big sister, well for the torture that's the least I can say!

Thanks for everything, love you.

10/3 Poem

I dated a Frank Sinatra once

And ohh was he a fine fella

He wore a cologne of love

And when we danced I became Cinderella

Smile today love I miss you, I love you. You are in my thoughts always.

With love,

India