1/21/2012

Ah to want a friend
But be cursed by wise lips
Nevermore lonelier words
Satan quit not his trips

Clipped winged hope
For fear its flight
Pray'd fors be sent
Again love not write

To save a sin
For celebration sake
Why excellence lord
For normals sake

Why must eyes see
A way away
What be two for heaven
One mind to stay

Faithful in faith
No questioned whined
Keep all thyself forward
On not weary's time

It is not I that matter
So right its wronging
Leave not Righteousness alone
Let not one not steal thy most precious belongings

1/29/2012

To deny myself a foot
For I no itll walk 100 miles
I defy myself to tears
Hurts be wilded

To deny myself an eye
For I no itll show thy soul
I defy myself to tears
Hurts braved back untold

To deny myself a hand
For I no itll grasp at the smoke
I defy myself to tears
Hurts alaVok

To deny myself a heart
For I know itll love desparately
I defy myself to tears
Hurt is every part of me

Ill deny myself every limb
Hear, see, taste, feel pain away
Remedy thy impatience
I defy myself not my poetry

2/6/2012

In my excess

Be blessed to bless

Fresh kept sorrow

Due gin morrow

My begged fo burden

My Prayed fo hurt’n

Winned words whaled

Saved cat-tailed

Heaved high healed climb

Sweet loved lemon rind

Heavy lids be rinsed

Truths in tensed

Flocked mercy me lord

Break thy bored

Humble me heighty

Gift me mighty

Limit no care

Poor not no fear

Use me

Selfishly

Poem 1-17

When it hurts, I cry
The same ol tears
When lord will it be my chance
To love without these fears

Wiser now I admit
Oh how I've grown
My only wish now
Sweet ignorance a distant friend to have known

No fingers pointed
More directed at me
Better than
Misery

Although it hurts
All pain not good or bad
Just tears to babtise
A soul from sadness

Truth sought is truth seen
A darkness resided
No hope bestowed
He and his soul besided

Only plans to go forth
And fill my time with faith
Love til I have no more
A journey where sure no safe

12-30 Poem

Who was I
Teenage orphans know
Saddness burried far beneath
Smiles that deceive sorrow

Barders made by birthright
Bear life, ignorant but blamed
Children and babies carryon sins
From kinship who share lastname

Brokenhearted charms
Hung by faith and security
Encrusted by betrayal
Round this lastborn's misery

Hurried to be done
Dispelled to Wed me away
Disobedience, an unruly child
Eyes for truth see how well we the bad obey

A love then so fragile gone
Ignited inflamed to ash
Hushed secrets wanting to be told
Pained most seemed no on cared to ask

Loved him first and most of all
With leftover love to be had
It was all a lie as it be told
One big fable I only'd wish this deceitful heart ever said

Such opposition of what shouldve been
Left me a mess that Fall day
Wouldve been easier just to die
Than have it be him too who wished me away

Riddled hearts survive
Hope babtised twice over in tears
A fight I made my own
Riddled hearts grow acute fears

To fraid to surpress and forget
Of wealth which lives in every detail
Or keep so close the bouts
There'd be no child to tell

To weigh whether lost or gained
O judge right or wrong o'er tragedy
Life wills whether we do or dont
We choose our own debauchery

12/22

Winter first
Winter fast
When hurts
Make winners last

Season's change
A fickle heart
Not quick to Fall
Love became art

Tears
Flooded my Spring
Winter wont have joy
Without sacrifcing

12/21 Poem

That's too bad for us
I'm sure of it for me
He became thy lost love
I needed subconciously

Squandered forgiveness
Led this fool's fragile heart astray
Stubborn thy mind to concieve
Potential felicity reason to stay

An intentional diversion
Although relunctant I learned
Hurt begets hurt
Lest redemption be earned

As the story be told
I met a stranger whom I loved
Pedastled in admiration
Priced his needs, mine above

I defied gravity to hover
Paralytically on borrowed time
In fear any upset would confirm
Thy hopes of us were just mine

Settled to recoarse as friends
I knew him to fail any change
He who abandons once
If allowed to, will again and again

A fool for love
Is what I made me
Blind eyes found refuge
To prevalent treachery

Cloaked by pain I deserve
Strength now but none then to leave
Him a mere tyrannical mortal
Athena he not better to beseige

Only if he knew
The lesson he burdened himself to teach
If and when learned, robbed him
Of the love so reverently beseeched

If I knew of him at all
He wanted to care, even lovingly
Let the stars be cursed
Vexed now to thy memory

Hear me confess
That be but my one regret
Thy fallacies t'with love
Novices, fail sure by his suspect

Bless'd to have known
Someone with what made him me
Alone dispelled from loneliness
Newfound conviction with security